3:20 am still no sleep.
i went off this medication i had been taking for the past year for migraines. the medication didn't work but it made me sleepy all the time which sucked during the day but was great at night since i was out like a light. even if i had a million things on my mind i'd pretty much be sleeping when it was time to hit the pillow. sigh...
i'm back to my old ways it seems. only two days off this wonderous sleepy pill slash worst pill ever since it induced my migraines and i cant sleep no matter what. it sucks. is wonderous a word... if it is i just spelled it wrong not once but twice.
i wish i could do something useful with this time. like learn a new language, draw something, or read a book. but i dont have the capacity for any of that when i dont sleep. late hours like this my mind is on overdrive which means a lot for someone who already thinks a lot to the point where i say and do things that dont make sense, because im always in my mind never paying attention to what is right in front me. well not always but a good majority of those lovely daylight hours. perhaps most people are like that but im going to go with most people not being like that....
i probably sound like some crazy person on a rant. or maybe i only sound crazy when i put it in your head by writing that.... interesting thought.
well at least i have one friend who is awake... but that's because he's in another time zone it's 12 hours ahead where he is... man i'm f*cked tomorrow since i still havent slept. it's now 4am... uhhh...
night school isn't going to help me at all come fall. it's just going to reinforce this badness...
RIVER PHOENIX
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